I have taken a long time away from this space because I have needed a lot of time to heal. I’m still healing. I have been told repeatedly that this recovery is a very long process. Having multiple pulmonary embolisms is no joke and I have been forced to slow all the way down. I’m fortunate that from the time I was hospitalized and the time I go back to work it will have been about four months, I am very fortunate. The first six weeks that I was home I was too mentally and physically exhausted to do much of anything, I couldn’t even knit! When I finally felt like I could read a knitting pattern again I was elated but my knitting is slower, I’m more distracted and sometimes I just need to do absolutely nothing. So I have been trying to be as kind to myself as I possibly can be because this is hard. I keep telling people, I look good on the outside, it’s the inside that’s a mess!
Over the last few weeks I’ve started to feel better in a different way. There is always an underlying fatigue I feel all the time but my energy is picking up, my breathing has improved A LOT and I’m learning a new normal and trying to really listen to my body. I’ve realized there are just some things I cannot do right now, so I have to say no and set boundaries for myself and my healing. I was glad to finally start to feel like myself because I filmed my Knit Stars segments at the end of July. It was exhausting, but it was so fun. I’ve got some behind the scenes things to share but I’ll share that soon. For now I just wanted to say thank you so much for all your messages and support. Slowly but surely I’m finding my new rhythm and figuring out how to make things work.